Out on a swing

Fear and self doubt can make us do some funny things.

Imagine that one certain someone, namely moi, would have to exert a substantial amount of effort into a final lap to conclude a “marathon” of a theater program (3 years of conservatory style) with a 20 minute solo piece to be written, edited, blocked , directed etc…all on you.

Wouldn’t this someone want to see and rejoice in the final result, whatever that result might be, as soon as he was able to get his hands on it?

As I said,  fear and self doubt can make us do some funny things.  Funny contradictory things!  But 3 years later and I finally got the balls to sit down and watch my own solo show.

Clumsy, yes. Horrible, hardly.

While concepts remain in our minds they have a tendency to become either smaller than they are in real life, or gigantically disproportionate in a larger scale. Not to be redundant, but let’s be frank.

Watching my solo show made me reflect on what I have done, what could and should be done differently. I was able to see it with a critic, yet compassionate, eye.

In case you are wondering about the pic, the show was called  “Out on a Swing” and it was a play on words on Shirley McClain’s movie Out on a limb. There was a swing, some nudity and lots of hard to hear lines in it.  And I look like I was having a blast despite the nerves involved.

Good times  🙂